Tick, Tock - Damn This Clock

I have no idea who bears the responsibility or how they set it off. Truth be told I do not care, please just turn it off. It did not happen first thing this morning like I was warned one day it would. Instead it occurred five minutes ago as I pulled into the metro station for the second leg of my morning commute. It went off, loud and clear as the alarm on my phone only an hour prior, my biological alarm clock.

This clock's alarm is not a loud piercing sound like a typical buzzer but "life's more challenging questions" in my head swirling and richocheting in my mind at the speed of light: you are 28 when will you settle down with someone to spend your life with? will these wonderful friendships you have bring the pitter-patter of children's feet to your home? when are you going to be an owner and stop being a renter? your niece will be three soon, no plans to provide her with a cousin her age, give your mom another grandchild? your looks and body will soon fall into disrepair and who will want you then? when will you come home to a warm smile instead of a cold bed?

For five minutes these questions pounded my brain leaving me with a kindle in my hand and the strong sense of insecurity. Only a few months ago I made the conscious decision to take a break from relationships and to allow myself to be single and find happiness within myself. Now with the incessant ringing in my head should I abandon this plan and make myself readily available to meet, greet, mingle until I find that special person. I was told only fools rush in, and momma ain't raise no fool. However, maybe they rushed in because it was the only was to shut off this Damn clock! How do you turn this off, oh my gosh...