Keep Me Hanging On
This blog is dedicated to you, all of you, the people who come into my life and remind me why I am a cynical @$$hole. I was not always this way, I used to trust people. I believed people when they told me their feelings, I allowed myself to be open and honest with them.
When you look up the meaning of cynical, it will tell you: a person disparaging of other people's feelings or motives. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/cynical . A cynic is a person who believes the selfishness of others motivates them beyond anything else. I, my friends, am a cynic, and I am rather up front about it. Let me tell you what Webster will not tell you, nobody is born cynic. People are made cynical due to an event or series of events that spark a mistrust in their mind and heart that grows larger and stronger over time. I will not delve into what caused me to become the cynical person I am today, but for the purpose of this blog, I will tell you what keeps me this way.
You may have a friend who you help out. You may help them find a job, go car shopping with them, you are there if they need you; things that any good friend would do. Say by chance, your car breaks down, and you call that same friend, and ask him/her to come an hour out their way to pick you up, but they cannot do so for whatever reason. You my friend keep me cynical. Or perhaps you have a friend (and many will relate to this) of the same or opposite gender, and you guys are tight. Then they begin dating someone, and get engaged, and suddenly you do not hear from them. They barely return your calls, you have not even met their significant other of how ever many years. You my friend keep me cynical. Lastly, refer to my earlier post of "guard your grill". That person who was on their Ps and Qs suddenly cannot seem to answer their phone. You leave them a voicemail, and they call you back hours later with no explanation. (Naturally you do not ask for one because it may be seen as jealousy and you're a man; jealousy is a female trait, and you have not flipped the script yet.) You used to talk before bed, now you barely talk after dinner. You my darling keep me cynical. I congratulate all those who remain trusting or simply somewhat guarded when it comes to the motives of others. You are better than me. But unless you can truly say you are not guilty of any of the above, do not get mad at me for being the cynical @$$hole I am, because after all you keep me this way.
When you look up the meaning of cynical, it will tell you: a person disparaging of other people's feelings or motives. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/cynical . A cynic is a person who believes the selfishness of others motivates them beyond anything else. I, my friends, am a cynic, and I am rather up front about it. Let me tell you what Webster will not tell you, nobody is born cynic. People are made cynical due to an event or series of events that spark a mistrust in their mind and heart that grows larger and stronger over time. I will not delve into what caused me to become the cynical person I am today, but for the purpose of this blog, I will tell you what keeps me this way.
You may have a friend who you help out. You may help them find a job, go car shopping with them, you are there if they need you; things that any good friend would do. Say by chance, your car breaks down, and you call that same friend, and ask him/her to come an hour out their way to pick you up, but they cannot do so for whatever reason. You my friend keep me cynical. Or perhaps you have a friend (and many will relate to this) of the same or opposite gender, and you guys are tight. Then they begin dating someone, and get engaged, and suddenly you do not hear from them. They barely return your calls, you have not even met their significant other of how ever many years. You my friend keep me cynical. Lastly, refer to my earlier post of "guard your grill". That person who was on their Ps and Qs suddenly cannot seem to answer their phone. You leave them a voicemail, and they call you back hours later with no explanation. (Naturally you do not ask for one because it may be seen as jealousy and you're a man; jealousy is a female trait, and you have not flipped the script yet.) You used to talk before bed, now you barely talk after dinner. You my darling keep me cynical. I congratulate all those who remain trusting or simply somewhat guarded when it comes to the motives of others. You are better than me. But unless you can truly say you are not guilty of any of the above, do not get mad at me for being the cynical @$$hole I am, because after all you keep me this way.
posted by K. Jobe | 21:20
1 Comments:
People can choose who or what they want to be or what they allow to control their feelings or race their minds. I feel your looking for a reason to justify the way you are. That's giving powers to others because your never really living for self. Just as a series of events can spark the way you are but that same series of events
doesn't have to keep you there. But if excuses make it easy
for you to rest at night keep them. But if you want true peace
then I encourage you to let them go.
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